For me, CONSCIOUS CONTACT is a personal relationship with God in this moment and at this time. I do not look back in regret nor do I look forward in fear. Through the grace of God in this moment I have relinquished my human nature. My human instincts are no longer propelling my thought process, but rather my thought process is propelled by the will of God through inspiration.The "Big Book" of Alcoholics Anonymous says, "We may face indecision, we might not be able to determine which course to take. Here we ask God for inspiration, an intuitive thought or decision. We are often surprised how the right answers will come after we have tried this for awhile. What used to be the hunch or the occasional inspiration gradually becomes a working part of the mind. We find our thinking will be, as time passes, more and more on the plane of inspiration. We come to rely upon it." The dictionary defines inspiration as, "the thoughts of God implanted upon the mind and soul of man." I do not need to run the thoughts of God through my intellect - I instantaneously perceive them as truth. The question becomes, will I be obedient? Is my behavior going to be propelled by the will of God or by my human instincts? The back half of the Eleventh Step says, "...praying only for the knowledge of God's will for us and the power to carry that out", as my human nature will never do the will of God.
It is here that a recovered alcoholic lives, in the will of God, through CONSCIOUS CONTACT.
Written by Armand
My thinking, I've learned, was always the problem. Drinking was only a symptom of my fear-flooded and, therefore, reckless mind. So to have my mind propelled through inspiration, to have peace and certainty gradually become a working part of my mind - these possibilities were far beyond anything I could "think." Which, to me, is the point. Of course, as you point out, this recognition is meaningless if I am not obedient to that inner calling, which is not always easy. It took/takes integrating all Twelve Steps into my life in such a way that they have become my life to become aware of The Power Within me on whose Inspiration I can fully rely. Thence, it is up to me to determine in whose will I choose to live. Simple but not easy. Only available by "seizing" upon The Big Book program of recovery and following its suggestions.
ReplyDeleteMichael as we vspoke of earlier, when we rid ourselves of guilt and shame the Lord becomes known to us...Thank you...Armand
DeleteIn this modern and technological age, with it’s constantly confusing clatter of human pedagogy, situational ethics and moral relativism, there is yet a timeless and eternal call still being proclaimed by the Creator and Sustainer of all:
ReplyDelete"Behold, I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in to him and dine with him, and he with Me"...
When we became even the least bit willing to answer that invitation, we will soon discover that the 12 Steps of AA are in the order they are for a reason and Step 11 is no exception. Every step is recorded in the past perfect tense forming the collective testimony of each personal yet unified journey on this divinely inspired road less traveled with a simple clarity seldom encountered in secular writings. There is no me as the focus proclaimed. There is solely Himself, as the ultimate destination named. God can only be experienced when all other forms of mere human ingenuity are abandoned and surrendered and replaced by a fervently desired Person who is the only Faithful and True Author of Life through the only path He has proclaimed, a humble and contrite heart.
The Steps, in- their- entirety, bear unimpeachable witness through collective personal testimony to God's never ending outreach of grace to anyone who is willing to surrender and embrace the immutable truth of His Word that manifests the undeniable Presence of His Person the moment we make a decision to turn our will and our lives over to His care. It is He that is the source of an ever increasing desire to understand Him and His ultimate reason for His creation.
It is He, who sweeps away the carnage of our past and our morbid dread of the future. It is He, who authors the Fruit of the Spirit as a never ending manifestation of the divinely desired relationship that, once barred from within, is now free to inspire our every conscious moment. It is He, who provides the grace to yield ourselves to Him as our old desires are systematically swept away and it is He, who lovingly compels us to inwardly nurture and surrender to this ongoing and ever broadening transformation and relationship with the Creator, Sustainer and Lover of our souls.
Just as the 11th step bears witness that God Himself is the instigation and inspiration of our growing desire to commune with and please Him, Step 12 testifies that this once desperately lived life begins to bear the unmistakable witness of Gods presence and purpose through the Holy Spirit who now resides within to reveal Jesus, drawing those still suffering from the insatiable, desperate loneliness of a life without hope to a true and eternal life of freedom and peace. Yes, although we live In a world gone mad, be of good cheer; for the Alpha and Omega, the only True Source of eternal peace, joy and hope still proclaims:
"Behold, I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in to him and dine with him, and he with Me" - Revelation 3:20 -
A Grateful Recovering Alcoholic
A Gratefully Recovering Alcoholic Amen my friend...thank you...Armand
ReplyDeleteI pray to live in the will of God. I seek to have conscious contact with God, to connect and have god guide and direct my thinking. My nature does not serve me and causes me to suffer. I seek to be at peace, to have a sense of ease and comfort in God’s will for me. Living in acceptance and faith.
ReplyDeletejessica integrate the 12 Steps of Alcoholics Anonymous into your life in such a way that it becomes your life and you will...Thank you...Armand
ReplyDeleteIn my Big Book on P 87 I have a handwritten note in the margin: "Inspiration: the thoughts and plans of God implanted in the mind of Man." Jotted down at a book study meeting with Michael C. Thank you Armand and Michael for "giving it away so you can keep it"
ReplyDeleteDan I would add to that, in the mind and soul of man...Thank you...Armand
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